Love is fascinating and is suppose to be good, but sometimes it’s no fun at all. Especially if it is one sided. Especially if it is full of pretensions and martyrdom.
Because you know I am in this situation. It’s hard, it’s painful and it hurts. It’s like falling in an endless pit.
What I will not understand though is the pretension. Why pretend that you love me when you are actually falling for someone else. You know my heart is not blind, it’s not even numb or dumb. I can feel and see all of the obvious.
For whatever reason I keep on allowing myself to get hurt and feel this pain, thinking that one day you’ll realize what pain is all about and from that understand how my love is only for you and I’m always willing to sacrifice and patiently wait for the day you’ll realize.