I am alone but with myself. Aaminin ko hindi ako mahilig sa mga tao, hindi sa masama sila o hindi ko sila gusto pero mahirap ipaliwanag , komplikado ang buhay ko kapag nasa paligid ng maraming tao. Mahilig akong mag-isa, mag-isip, makiramdam, mag-isip ng sobrang lalim, mawala sa sarili, magpalutang-lutang sa mga hinanaing ng puso … Continue reading Solitude, Life of a Hermit (An Essay)
Overwhelmed, underwhelmed I don't know. I am having this sunken feeling. I don't know I'm suppose to be happy, be grateful but instead here I am, feeling so low. So much so that I could not even contain it. It really shows, no matter what I do. I feel like time is always running out. … Continue reading Sunken World
When you've been through a lot and they've been hurting you over and over again, what would you do. I mean what would you really do. How will you know that it's time to let go, that you've had enough. Hearts are blind, they are meant to not see, was it because having to feel … Continue reading How to know when it’s enough
I must rest here, try to think long again, lay here, be vulnerable but be accepting, try to understand further how brokenness can benefit this ailing soul and heart not wanting to get crushed into dust.
Love is fascinating and is suppose to be good, but sometimes it's no fun at all. Especially if it is one sided. Especially if it is full of pretensions and martyrdom. Because you know I am in this situation. It's hard, it's painful and it hurts. It's like falling in an endless pit. What I … Continue reading It hurts when it’s one sided.
You know there are times when people are really stupid, like they thought that they are fooling you. They thought that you don't feel anything at all, that you are numb, stupid, dumb, crazy like they are. Well the truth hurts, it hurts so bad you just wanted to cry. Like fairy tales it hits … Continue reading And I was like
It was never easy, when God gave you to me, I did not ask, questioned or inquired. You were just there, on front of me. I can never say no, it was just so easy, our love runned smoothly. But now my doubts are free. You are not making me feel good.It is onvious you … Continue reading Doubting my love
So here I am again with my sleepless nights. It is beggining to come back again. The nightmares are persistent this time. I wonder if this eill ever go away..
You know sometimes when you were talking to somebody or to some people and you feel so lost. You don't even know where the story is going or if you can relate or vice versa. It's so tricky, not it's actually hard. It's been hard to find people you can converse with. Especially conversations that … Continue reading That Kind of Level
Right now the world is full of rules. There are rules because we are becoming destructive. And we create boundaries to control them, forgetting that before these we were once free. In fact we still are, let's put our minds to this freedom, close your eyes, imagine the world before you. Stand, shout, breath and … Continue reading The World of Rules