Love is fascinating and is suppose to be good, but sometimes it's no fun at all. Especially if it is one sided. Especially if it is full of pretensions and martyrdom. Because you know I am in this situation. It's hard, it's painful and it hurts. It's like falling in an endless pit. What I … Continue reading It hurts when it’s one sided.
You know there are times when people are really stupid, like they thought that they are fooling you. They thought that you don't feel anything at all, that you are numb, stupid, dumb, crazy like they are. Well the truth hurts, it hurts so bad you just wanted to cry. Like fairy tales it hits … Continue reading And I was like
It was never easy, when God gave you to me, I did not ask, questioned or inquired. You were just there, on front of me. I can never say no, it was just so easy, our love runned smoothly. But now my doubts are free. You are not making me feel good.It is onvious you … Continue reading Doubting my love
So here I am again with my sleepless nights. It is beggining to come back again. The nightmares are persistent this time. I wonder if this eill ever go away..
My universe is wide, in fact immeasurable, because it is huge I can live and die in it a thousand times. This universe is a happy, colorful one, and in it you die peacefully and come back anew gracefully. This is not a dream, it is real. So real that you can do whatever you … Continue reading More than you can think of
There's no such thing as perfect, because if there is then life is useless.
Coz my dear, if I'm out of the picture. Just want you to know that, I don't like you. I don't like you at all. I'd rather that I take myself out of the picture than pretend to enjoy but not.
I love flowers, trees, fruits, butterflies, ants, dogs, cats and the like. I love nature! I think in my past life I am the daughter of mother earth. The child she loved the most. I can be anything nature, like a tree, a tame deer but also a mighty lion when provoked. I can flow like … Continue reading I love!
See the problem is I am all over the place, you can't stop me. Spinning and doing all these things at once.
I've been reading a lot, yes lately I've been up late trying to search for my answers, to come to a proposition, a solid solution to my longing, my longing for happiness. I am desperate to create and find ways to achieve this, been thinking a lot, contemplating, how do I end this war in … Continue reading That longing for happiness